Margaret

Still in very early stages of grieving. I am finding it really really hard to deal with. I still feel I will wake up and it was all a bad dream. I still listen for him phoning me.

He was the most loving caring son anyone could wish for. We were really close, most people would say Paul and I had a unique relationship as we could tell each other anything. I loved him with all my heart. His relationship broke down and he became very depressed fighting for access to his darling daughter, Lauren, aged 5. He could not take the heartache anymore and could not bear his darling daughter having another "daddy". His ex has an awful lot to answer for. But that does not bring my loving son back. When he died a huge part of me died to.