Elaine

Im a aupair who was blessed with the two most beautiful little twin girls I started looking after them when they were 4months old and from that day on became as close as can be... I spend 90% of each day with them i basically raised them I just didnt have to pay for them. They were like my own. Seeing that they were very prem. the one had C.P. I still treated them the same whatever the one did the other also whe had a blast every day. Even though she couldnt walk talk see eat or hear we lived our lives as "normal" as we could...She was so happy always smiling she loved music and cuddling she gave me hope every day. After 2 years and 6 months she developed a bad chest infection and her parents decided to let her peacefully go instead of having more operations. I feel we gave up on her she was trying her best and she got so far to have just quit. My heart is shatterd and it was difficult to try move on i still havent I just thank God for her twin sister who kept me going it was so hard for me too to see how she grieved in her own little way about her best friend and sister. She kept me going i couldnt give up i had to stay strong for her. But in a second my whole world changed again me and the mom had a terrible fight and i was not allowed to see her ever again. I know shes stil alive but my heart is in shreads ive not only lost one but two of the most precious things in my life... I cant seep to move on and i have no one to talk to that would understand eventhoug i did not give birth to them they were my own... I just need someone who would understand.... I cant seem to move on I miss them so mutch....

She had a very bad chest infection... the parents decided to not put her throug any more pain and let her go... Se had C.P. and she was 2.6mnths when she passed away.