brenda judy

i lost my partner,my soul mate on feb 21,2009 due to health problems his kidneys were shutting down and the hospital did very little to save him the dr. said he was gonna be ok and will have to stay in the hospital a few days well they took him to the ccu and while they were working on him he heart failed i've never felt so alone and lost as i do now.this was such a shock to me and his children he laid in the hospital all day before they decided to do anything i feel like i should of said more than i did now all i do is cry i have pics every where so many memeroies i just want to keep alive he was 51 everyone keeps telling me it'll get easier in time i want to die at times he was my life and i feel like i died with him