My father died last month, he had cancer of the esophagus. For the most part I am doing good but when I call my mom or my brother I get very emotional. I have always been in touch with my feelings and sometimes one just has to cry. My family is angry that I do not live near them and this has created a big riff amoung us. My life is with my husband and pets and I am not able to do anything in my power at present to change this so my mom and especially my brother are very angered that I am not there for them. It does help to write and I am happy to have done so and just knowing you are there helps. Thank you

I have lost my parents, 2 brothers, my husband to cancer and than I battled breast cancer just 4 months after he had passed away. Writing does help so much. Don't beat yourself up so much about not being located close to your family. That seems to be out of your control. You hang in there and vent when you need to, cry when you need to, and take care of yourself. Wanda in Ky.

Hello everybody, not a walk in the park this greiveing business, find it quite hard to talk to my family and have shut all my friends out,life can be very cruel cant it, i 2 find it easier to talk to strangers about my dad, i hope everybody is well today. X

Hi all. rsmad69, I know what you mean. Its so hard to talk about it to friends and family.
Ive buried myself in work since my boyfriend died. And it seems like people forget so quickly. They dont ask about him, or how i am. And I dont say anything. I just put on a brave face. Untill I come home, and nobodys there. Its 11 months since he passed, and I still miss him like crazy. Its hard to sleep, its hard to imagine a future without him. I still sort of wait for him to come home.. that hes just been on a long holiday or something. And I fear the day I will realise that hes gone.
I dream about him a lot, and that is comforting. But it makes me sad when i wake up, cos i just wanna stay in the dream with him, and not wake up.
I wonder how long it will feel like this. The sadness in my heart doesnt seem to get any smaller. I just hide it to the world.

Hey camlin,how are you doing today, sorry to hear your loss,i know wot you mean to, i feel ppl forget what has happed to my family, i feel like shouting at the world to stop my dad has passed. I know life carrys on so they say and this is true but with christmas coming up im dreading it, i recently lost my girlfriend we split up so i feel so alone now if you ever need to talk msg me on here do me good aswell ya know, i to have burried myself keeping busy i end up tireing myself out hoping to sleep at night but it dont always work, it will be nine months tomorrow 3ed he passed cant get the date and time out my head, they say time a good healer but i agree with you the pain is so overwhelming it can make you stop in your tracks if your not careful.

 I lost my husband of 46 years  16 days ago.  At first I was all right....now i'm a mess and cry all the time. JBE

When my only son died 3 years ago I thought that was all I could handle, this May 2nd I lost my husband of over 55 years. I have my up and down days but crying seems to be the most natural thing now. Especially yesterday when I cleared out his closet. Think I finally realized he is really gone.... A councelor told me that at first you are like your body had novicane in and as it wears off it hurts more.